I'm scattered. As in - my mind is literally all over the freakin place. What helps me focus? Lists.
School. Ok, so the class I'm in right now is kicking my butt. I have assignments every week that I really have to tend to and due dates that have no flexibility. In a way I feel like working for the government has slowed my way of doing things down. I can't think as fast because my first instinct is - eh, it's not the end of the world. Right? So yeah... I have like two more weeks left of class and then the next one rolls in. In looking at my schedule I will be steady until July 18th. That is when it's all over. Although, I still won't technically graduate until August. Which is fine. OH! So I ordered my cap and gown a week or so ago and it arrived. I tried it on. Pretty cool. I get to pick the rope up after April 15th, so that will be super cool when the whole outfit is all together. Did I mention that I looked at class rings? Yep. In high school I could have cared less about a class ring. Now - I want one. And there are nice ones out there... modern... simple... me. But too damn pricey.
Work. I think I mentioned before that the last few weeks have been insane. I have felt really overwhelmed at work and it's just been really busy. As HR Assistants we have a lot of responsibility to make sure important stuff is done correctly. Not any more than someone else in another job... but the pressure or stress level just feels a little heavier. Well my boss and I talked and she's going to take some stuff off my plate. Which feels really great because then I can breathe, but then I feel like such a slacker because I can't handle it all. I want to be able to do it all. All of the time. But there is just soooo much information. And I worry that I won't get it. I've been there for 9 months already and ... idk. It just doesn't feel like I'm where I want to be yet. Probably the biggest thing tripping me up right now is the pay.
So here is part 1 of my rant. The whole point of me going back to school and getting an education was so that I could be a strong, independent woman. Having a degree would open the doors to opportunities otherwise not available. Yet, as it stands... when I graduate I'm going to be THOUSANDS of dollars in debt (more so than I already am)and making $15k LESS than I was as an admin. I hated doing admin work. It was boring, repetitive and almost every boss I had was a turd. Not all - but most. And so it just sucks that here I am, getting my degree in HR and working in an HR job... yet I make crap for money. So to make up the difference, I am working two part time jobs. TWO. UGH. It's infuriating. I hate it. And I don't know what to do. So on nights when I really hate school and feel like quitting - this is what consumes my mind/thoughts. WHY GO ON?? WHY waste more money?
Anyways. What else. Bible study. Ok, so last fall I finally felt a tug or pull or whatever you want to call it to join a bible study / small group. I contacted a lady at the church. She emailed back and recommended that I wait til January because a lot of studies would be coming to a close with the holidays, blah blah blah. So I waited. I started this study in January and went in with the intention to learn more about the bible and grow with some other christian women. Well, last class at least two women at my table of 5 said that they don't complete their homework because the questions are too personal.
Rant number 2. SERIOUSLY?? What is the point of being in a small group or doing a bible study with a few ladies if you aren't even going to talk about the gutsy stuff? Otherwise, you could do it at home - ALONE. So I'm disappointed. The book of Daniel is really an incredible story and listening/watching Beth Moore has changed my life. Her view and interpretation of scripture is just amazing. But I'm more comfortable watching them at home and asking my own questions out loud than sitting at a table with a group of women who only want to talk about surface stuff. It's just - the whole point of doing it together is so that we grow and learn and listen and have the fellowship that we are supposed to have - that we are called to have with each other. Why? Because we can't have this type of fellowship with non-believers. I know for those of you who don't believe in God, I must sound crazy or whatever. But I'm just sad and disappointed. For now I'll continue to go and when it's all said and done, do a little more research into who I'm dealing with. We'll see how that goes.
Family. I can't stop thinking about family right now. Everyone is on my mind and it drives me crazy that I can't see them more or talk to them more... or whatever. I am still hoping to make it back to NC in the next few months, but I don't know if that's going to happen. Ticket prices are really high right now. On a positive note - my ex-step dad is going to fly out for my graduation ceremony in May. I am SUPER excited for that. I've told a few family members already and no one is interested. Whatever. I guess for most people graduating college isn't a big deal. For me - it is a BIG deal. I have spent the last 6 years of my life working and going to school along with everything else. It is a HUGE honor and big deal to have family be here when I walk across that stage. And yet I've only got 1 person who shows any level of enthusiasm or interest.
So basically, I suck. Because my people don't live up to my expectations and therefore I become disappointed and depressed. Blah.
Baby Fever. And I don't mean just the human kind... it's all over. This past Sunday Aaron and I went to a Keeshond Mardi Gras party. I found a breeder online and she invited me to the party. It was awesome. All these furry little babies running around all over the place. It only made me miss Lady even more and solidify once again that this breed is truly - MY breed. Aaron did great. He didn't interact with the dogs too much, but showed no sign of anxiety or stress. I talked with a breeder and met one of the gals she is going to breed this summer. I am hoping for a pup from that litter later on this fall. YAY!! Aside from furry babies though... there are pregnant women everywhere. The gal that sits on the other side of my cube wall is pregnant. We aren't close so I can't just talk to her or ask all the questions I want. Plus, I'm like hundreds of other freaks that wants to touch her belly. I haven't asked and I won't. But it's there. Then, like a punch in the stomach we found out last night that Nathan's mommy is pregnant and due in November. What's weird is that when I thought she was pregnant last year I was ok. Now, I'm a mess. I'm jealous. I'm envious. Things that I'm not normally. Why?? Aaron and I have openly talked about our plans to get pregnant next year. So it's not like I don't have something to look forward to, because I do. But then there is a fear. Fear of - what if? What if I can't or don't get pregnant? How do you live life surrounded by women who have babies like it's nothing? And I think with Baby's Momma in particular, it's a combination of things. I feel like she has everything she's ever wanted and it all comes so easily. Secure job - check. Stable husband - check. Big house - check. New car - check. Involvement at the church - check. I mean, the list goes on and on. And I ask myself - how much freakin longer? Ugh. I know that if the time were right, we'd be pregnant right now. It's just still a little hard to watch other people when you know you can't yet. I'm just really anxious for that experience. OH! Not to mention - my sister-in-law is pregnant too. Due in October. Of course I am thrilled for all these mommies, I just want to be one.
What else? Vegas is less than two weeks away. I can't wait. So I have Vegas in March. Easter with the squirt in April... graduation and visitor in May. Father's Day in June. Etc.
I guess for now I'm done. The words and thoughts are out of my head.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
A white rope
So I ended up staying home today with another disabling migraine. Thank GOD for medication that makes the pain go away. Along with sleep. Anyhoo... in between naps I decided to go through some emails and take care of a few things that needed my attention. One of which is graduation ceremony stuff. I got an email a couple weeks ago saying I had to complete a form, order cap/gown and whatever else. So I went to complete the stuff and it wouldn't let me. It kept saying "Completed". I called my advisor and she informed me that the form was complete - an error would be corrected, however - BUT that I will be graduating with HONORS. CUM LAUDE!!! I get to wear a special white rope dealy and everything. I can't believe it.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
2010 Happenings
As of last week I am officially enrolled in a Pilates class with a friend. It's on site at the Welness Center for work so we just hop over there. Today was week 2. My core feels like someone punched me in the gut a few times. Ugh. I am so out of shape!
I am also in a bible study on Thursday nights from 7-9 pm. We are studying the book of Daniel - Living a Life of Integrity. So far it's amazing. It's going to change my life. It's a Beth Moore study, which I have never done before but I love her style of preaching/teaching.
Courtesy of my bestest friend, Krissi, I am going to LAS VEGAS in March. I CAN NOT wait. I get to have 2.5 solid days with her to just hang out, talk, be silly, cry, and most importantly - take advantage of all the sin city happenings.
I am dog sitting this weekend for 3 of my favorite pups. I can't wait to be with them all weekend. Long walks... furry cuddles... kisses.
Sad news -Aaron's best bud, Todd, had his dad pass away last week. We are attending the services this Saturday down in the Springs. But it's just really sad. I love Todd dearly and to know he's hurting makes my heart ache. Losing family sucks.
Eh. I can't think any more for tonight.
I am also in a bible study on Thursday nights from 7-9 pm. We are studying the book of Daniel - Living a Life of Integrity. So far it's amazing. It's going to change my life. It's a Beth Moore study, which I have never done before but I love her style of preaching/teaching.
Courtesy of my bestest friend, Krissi, I am going to LAS VEGAS in March. I CAN NOT wait. I get to have 2.5 solid days with her to just hang out, talk, be silly, cry, and most importantly - take advantage of all the sin city happenings.
I am dog sitting this weekend for 3 of my favorite pups. I can't wait to be with them all weekend. Long walks... furry cuddles... kisses.
Sad news -Aaron's best bud, Todd, had his dad pass away last week. We are attending the services this Saturday down in the Springs. But it's just really sad. I love Todd dearly and to know he's hurting makes my heart ache. Losing family sucks.
Eh. I can't think any more for tonight.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Giving Blood saves lives!
And in my particular situation, it also makes me a wuss. I gave blood yesterday for like... the 5th time or something since early last year. Aaron and I have O+ and so the bank calls like clock work every 10 weeks. Well yesterday it just didn't start out all that well. I slept on a couch, got horrible sleep, ate a quick breakfast and then didn't eat again until AFTER my blood appt. So everything is going as normal. I'm feeling fine and then the gal goes to pull the needle out. All of sudden I feel really sick and within a minute start to get super light headed and dizzy. So I turn to her and say, "Um.. I don't feel right." She takes one look at me, raises my feet, grabs a couple cold compresses and then I puked. Yep. At the freakin blood bank. How pathetic does that get?? Anyways, there were a ton of contributing factors to my situation, but overall I just felt incredibly embarrassed. Got home, at a sandwich, took a shower and napped for a bit. Woke up a couple hours later feeling much better but not 100% yet. Then I made Aaron and I a very fancy, gourmet meal. DELICIOUS!
So... after thinking about it some I believe what happened is that my mind got the better of me. I was nervous about going in because the last time we were there the gal that pricked me HURT!!!!!!! LIKE.... REALLY BAD.... SO Bad in fact that my scar took like 11 weeks to heal. Nuts. SO there was a little anxiety going into it. Ugh. Whatever it's done. Tomorrow morning I go to my general physician to have some blood work done to check all my levels of stuff. I guess my cholesterol was up a little last year so they are concerned about that. Anyways, I'll let you know what happens there. For now I feel ok. Just tired. And my bladder feels like the size of a walnut because I have to pee so freakin much. The ladies at the blood center told me to double/triple my water intake. Well - I already drink a lot so now its a LOT LOT.
Anyhoo... the meds have kicked in and I'm sleepy. YAY! Will write more tomorrow. I still have stories.
<3 m
So... after thinking about it some I believe what happened is that my mind got the better of me. I was nervous about going in because the last time we were there the gal that pricked me HURT!!!!!!! LIKE.... REALLY BAD.... SO Bad in fact that my scar took like 11 weeks to heal. Nuts. SO there was a little anxiety going into it. Ugh. Whatever it's done. Tomorrow morning I go to my general physician to have some blood work done to check all my levels of stuff. I guess my cholesterol was up a little last year so they are concerned about that. Anyways, I'll let you know what happens there. For now I feel ok. Just tired. And my bladder feels like the size of a walnut because I have to pee so freakin much. The ladies at the blood center told me to double/triple my water intake. Well - I already drink a lot so now its a LOT LOT.
Anyhoo... the meds have kicked in and I'm sleepy. YAY! Will write more tomorrow. I still have stories.
<3 m
Sunday, January 31, 2010
How long can the body hurt?
Ok, so my weekend in North Carolina went ok. I didn't accomplish any of my initial goals, but we got my Grandma in a better bed, so that is good. However- I will be flying back another 2 times in the next 8 months to help get them moved into an apartment.
So day 1 was Friday the 22nd. My uncle and I arrived with the idea that we were "surprising" my mom. Ha. My Gma had a fit. She thought we were there to take her away to a home. But then she quickly calmed down, changed her tune and allowed us to come in and purge her space. That day not a whole lot got done. My mom and I loaded up around 18 loads of laundry in bags, uncle put them in the van and we headed to a laundry mat. Not a bad place... they actually let you use the dryers for free if you wash your clothes there. Nice deal I think. I dropped mom off there and headed to Wal-Mart for some necessities. Came back, loaded up all the clothes and took mom home. Day 2 my uncle I met at WM and then headed to the house for the official purge. Our plan - get all the crap out and clear out the space around my Gma's bed so we could dis-assemble her current bed and put a new one in. It took about 6.5 hours to get the clutter out. Then we made another trip to WM and went by the storage unit to grab the spare mattress/box spring. That was fun. We managed to get the mattress inside the van and then tied the boxspring down to the roof. HA HA. It was a sight. Then we got the bed set up and for the first time watched as Gma was able to go from her wheel chair to a bed with no issues. YAY!!! Mission accomplished. Day 3 wasn't as productive, but I was a little bitter, so it was ok. I had intended to go to church with my friends but was literally too exhausted to move so I slept in. Then I got ready, picked my mom up and headed to Sephora - her dream store. We had lunch at Red Robin and then I dropped her off to shop for a little bit. While she was looking through all sorts of skin care and make up I was washing the van. It was a little grody, so I felt good when it was all shiny. Swung back and picked up mom. I even took a picture of her outside the store. Then I dropped her off to play with her new stuff.
So my oldest friend, Bri, had a baby two weeks ago today. I called to see if it was ok to stop over. Of course she lives in the middle of NOWHERE and it was raining. That drive was fun. But well worth it. I got to meet Carter Michael and Bri's husband, Bobby. Emma and I got to chat for a bit - she is 7 and loves Black Holes right now. Carter is adorable and I didn't want to give him back after holding him for like an hour. Ahhh.. babies. Can't wait! Then I drove back to K'ville. OH! SO I don't want to forget to mention that while I was in NC I stayed with my fabulous best girlie friend Ames and her hubby who I also got to meet for the first time. It was definitely the best place for me to crash at for this trip. Very comfortable and at home feeling. YAY! That night I ended back up at WM and then made myself a yummo dinner. Day 4 was Monday. I got up and stuffed my face with more biscuits. Did I mention those before?
Ok. Biscuits in the south are truly delicious. I haven't been able to find anything that comes close to the fabulousness of their biscuits. Mmmm... the butter.. the flakiness... It's just soooo good. When Celeste and I drove out to CO from NC in July 2007 we noticed that Hardees and Bojangles stopped at Tennessee. Sad, huh? The peeps in CO deserve quality biscuits too. I just checked and they are solely in the South. As for Hardee's though, we have a couple close to us in WY. Cool. Never knew that. Ok, back to that Monday. For breakfast I had 3 biscuits. Delicious. Then for lunch I got to have my favorite BBQ in the whole world - Stamey's. OMG. I can't even describe the party that takes place on my tongue. Delicious. And for dessert - Strawberry Cobbler. GAH! Then, amazingly enough, we were able to make a quick stop by my uncle's work for a hug and mini tour of his work. It's pretty neat what they do there. And it's cool that he's been there for as long as he has. The flight home took a little longer than expected, but in the end I got home less than an hour late. Tuesday, Wed and Thurs were exhausting. Even now I still feel tired and sore in places.
Yeah, so about my body hurting. Tues and Wed my legs were driving my crazy. I stretched all day practically and still they hurt. I was up and down and doing so much over the weekend that when it came time to sit at my desk and do work - my body wasn't so happy. Now my neck and shoulders are expressing their discomfort. What is the point to all of this? I AM OUT OF SHAPE. I gotta start working out soon. Hiking, walking, going to the fitness center, etc. How long is it supposed to be this way? When does the soreness go away? Cause it seems like no matter how much water I drink, no matter how much I stretch, the muscles ache. Boo.
Anyways... very busy week at work. I am super duper busy and as a result feel like I'm not catching everything. I am a perfectionist, so that doesn't work well for me. School is kicking my butt. I started my capstone class for HR and I have 3 assignments per week. Gross, huh? Yeah... I can NOT wait to be done. I am still pet sitting. Got to watch Eliza this weekend. I sure do like her. The weather was perfect this weekend so we got to take some nice walks.
This is it for now. I have lots of other thoughts to come later. I will talk about my last class, my thoughts on life and just in general how I'm feeling. Prepare yourselves, I plan to expose the dark spots on my soul. Peace out peeps.
So day 1 was Friday the 22nd. My uncle and I arrived with the idea that we were "surprising" my mom. Ha. My Gma had a fit. She thought we were there to take her away to a home. But then she quickly calmed down, changed her tune and allowed us to come in and purge her space. That day not a whole lot got done. My mom and I loaded up around 18 loads of laundry in bags, uncle put them in the van and we headed to a laundry mat. Not a bad place... they actually let you use the dryers for free if you wash your clothes there. Nice deal I think. I dropped mom off there and headed to Wal-Mart for some necessities. Came back, loaded up all the clothes and took mom home. Day 2 my uncle I met at WM and then headed to the house for the official purge. Our plan - get all the crap out and clear out the space around my Gma's bed so we could dis-assemble her current bed and put a new one in. It took about 6.5 hours to get the clutter out. Then we made another trip to WM and went by the storage unit to grab the spare mattress/box spring. That was fun. We managed to get the mattress inside the van and then tied the boxspring down to the roof. HA HA. It was a sight. Then we got the bed set up and for the first time watched as Gma was able to go from her wheel chair to a bed with no issues. YAY!!! Mission accomplished. Day 3 wasn't as productive, but I was a little bitter, so it was ok. I had intended to go to church with my friends but was literally too exhausted to move so I slept in. Then I got ready, picked my mom up and headed to Sephora - her dream store. We had lunch at Red Robin and then I dropped her off to shop for a little bit. While she was looking through all sorts of skin care and make up I was washing the van. It was a little grody, so I felt good when it was all shiny. Swung back and picked up mom. I even took a picture of her outside the store. Then I dropped her off to play with her new stuff.
So my oldest friend, Bri, had a baby two weeks ago today. I called to see if it was ok to stop over. Of course she lives in the middle of NOWHERE and it was raining. That drive was fun. But well worth it. I got to meet Carter Michael and Bri's husband, Bobby. Emma and I got to chat for a bit - she is 7 and loves Black Holes right now. Carter is adorable and I didn't want to give him back after holding him for like an hour. Ahhh.. babies. Can't wait! Then I drove back to K'ville. OH! SO I don't want to forget to mention that while I was in NC I stayed with my fabulous best girlie friend Ames and her hubby who I also got to meet for the first time. It was definitely the best place for me to crash at for this trip. Very comfortable and at home feeling. YAY! That night I ended back up at WM and then made myself a yummo dinner. Day 4 was Monday. I got up and stuffed my face with more biscuits. Did I mention those before?
Ok. Biscuits in the south are truly delicious. I haven't been able to find anything that comes close to the fabulousness of their biscuits. Mmmm... the butter.. the flakiness... It's just soooo good. When Celeste and I drove out to CO from NC in July 2007 we noticed that Hardees and Bojangles stopped at Tennessee. Sad, huh? The peeps in CO deserve quality biscuits too. I just checked and they are solely in the South. As for Hardee's though, we have a couple close to us in WY. Cool. Never knew that. Ok, back to that Monday. For breakfast I had 3 biscuits. Delicious. Then for lunch I got to have my favorite BBQ in the whole world - Stamey's. OMG. I can't even describe the party that takes place on my tongue. Delicious. And for dessert - Strawberry Cobbler. GAH! Then, amazingly enough, we were able to make a quick stop by my uncle's work for a hug and mini tour of his work. It's pretty neat what they do there. And it's cool that he's been there for as long as he has. The flight home took a little longer than expected, but in the end I got home less than an hour late. Tuesday, Wed and Thurs were exhausting. Even now I still feel tired and sore in places.
Yeah, so about my body hurting. Tues and Wed my legs were driving my crazy. I stretched all day practically and still they hurt. I was up and down and doing so much over the weekend that when it came time to sit at my desk and do work - my body wasn't so happy. Now my neck and shoulders are expressing their discomfort. What is the point to all of this? I AM OUT OF SHAPE. I gotta start working out soon. Hiking, walking, going to the fitness center, etc. How long is it supposed to be this way? When does the soreness go away? Cause it seems like no matter how much water I drink, no matter how much I stretch, the muscles ache. Boo.
Anyways... very busy week at work. I am super duper busy and as a result feel like I'm not catching everything. I am a perfectionist, so that doesn't work well for me. School is kicking my butt. I started my capstone class for HR and I have 3 assignments per week. Gross, huh? Yeah... I can NOT wait to be done. I am still pet sitting. Got to watch Eliza this weekend. I sure do like her. The weather was perfect this weekend so we got to take some nice walks.
This is it for now. I have lots of other thoughts to come later. I will talk about my last class, my thoughts on life and just in general how I'm feeling. Prepare yourselves, I plan to expose the dark spots on my soul. Peace out peeps.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Jon Smith SUCKS
Um... yeah.... so if you are still reading my semi-private little blog here I would like all of you to know that Jonathan Smith is probably in the top worst 3 friends I have ever had. EVER.
Why?
Because this past weekend I took on the challenging endevour of flying to North Carolina to try and get some clutter out of my Gma's house. It was a very spur of the moment type of decision, but Aaron agreed that I needed to do something so I bought the ticket. Knowing that Jon lived a few hours away and we had wanted to see each other to catch up, I asked for his help and he gladly accepted. He offered his truck, a trailor, a few tarps and maybe even some boxes along with his personal muscle.
Sadly - and much to my disappointment - he didn't show up. Or call. Or anything. AT ALL. SO I was stuck at one house without transportation. And then the entire chore of clearing 5 areas of clutter rested solely on me and my uncle. For 3 days.
I am bitter. I am angry. I am disgusted. I am disappointed. I am sad. It just all around sucks. Here it is, I've had this friend in my life for the past 15 years. We've talked off and on and within the last few months its been, "I'm really glad that you're in my life again... blah blah blah." TOTAL BULL SHIT. So in the end, I feel like a fool for trusting yet another human being to follow through on what they say they will actually do. Uh huh. Whatever.
So yeah - Jon, if you're reading this. I think you are a coward and a lame example of a person. Good luck with your life.
Why?
Because this past weekend I took on the challenging endevour of flying to North Carolina to try and get some clutter out of my Gma's house. It was a very spur of the moment type of decision, but Aaron agreed that I needed to do something so I bought the ticket. Knowing that Jon lived a few hours away and we had wanted to see each other to catch up, I asked for his help and he gladly accepted. He offered his truck, a trailor, a few tarps and maybe even some boxes along with his personal muscle.
Sadly - and much to my disappointment - he didn't show up. Or call. Or anything. AT ALL. SO I was stuck at one house without transportation. And then the entire chore of clearing 5 areas of clutter rested solely on me and my uncle. For 3 days.
I am bitter. I am angry. I am disgusted. I am disappointed. I am sad. It just all around sucks. Here it is, I've had this friend in my life for the past 15 years. We've talked off and on and within the last few months its been, "I'm really glad that you're in my life again... blah blah blah." TOTAL BULL SHIT. So in the end, I feel like a fool for trusting yet another human being to follow through on what they say they will actually do. Uh huh. Whatever.
So yeah - Jon, if you're reading this. I think you are a coward and a lame example of a person. Good luck with your life.
Friday, January 8, 2010
I am all at sea...
HA! I WISH!!
Ok, so tons has happened since my last post. Our weekend with the squirt was awesome. He loved all his new toys and we had a blast playing along with him. I bought these foam swords at Target a couple months ago and they are GREAT. He just laughs and giggles and laughs.... I could hear that laugh all day long. Know what I mean?
Back at work that Tuesday, Wed and partial Thursday. Whomever is our primary decision maker on the totem pole let us leave at 1pm on the 31st. WHOO HOO! Know what I did? I took a nap!! Yep. Went home, cuddled with the pups I was watching and took a nice nap. Then we went for a long walk and parted ways. Their parents got home that night and I headed to Eliza's. Oh yeah.... I sure do love this dog. She is just so darn cute! Once I got over to her place she and I went for a long walk too. While I don't necessarily want to go walking at first with the dogs I watch, once I'm doing it - I usually feel really good afterward. So I know it's good for both of us. Anyways... that night was uneventful. Ace was a turd that night so I celebrated the new year watching Kendra and some show on Animal Planet. That Friday Ace and I had a serious talk... for like, 5 hours. After that we ate some lunch and headed to the mall. I'm on a mission to find the perfect boot. Now - this is the perfect boot for ME, not some fashionista. We walked around this damn mall for what felt like forever. I must have tried on 10 different pair. Nothing. Nada. Ick. Then we left there and watched Watchmen. Overall it was a nice way to start the year.
Then on Sunday I got some serious alone time and kicked my organizing into overdrive. It was awesome. I got so much done and it looks amazing. YAY! I also got some reading done for class and prepped for the week. It's been nice, actually. I have been home just about every night this week. Sleeping in my own bed, etc. Over the past month or so I realized that I need to be a little more selective with my pet sitting. I love animals, but time away from home ALL the time is a little much. Especially now that Ace and I are really making an effort to keep things healthy between us. I am actually on-call for my first weekend with the new job starting tonight. So far nothing yet. If everything goes as expected, I'll not get called in but make an easy $75. Not bad, huh?
So school... or class has been really interesting. Human Sexuality is much more than I really thought about. Not a surprise there, but it's forced me to think about a lot of things I wouldn't have otherwise. I imagine one night I will go into specifics on the blog and ask all sorts of questions. For now, just know that it has been a really neat class. One of our assigned textbooks is, Real Sex-The Naked Truth about Chastity. The title is a little scary and the first two chapters were horrible, but once you get into it - its actually a really good book. The 7th chapter in particular talks about sex in the church community and how as a church whole we really should be telling each other more about ourselves than we do. And we should be talking more openly about sex being that it was created by God. Very good read for any one who has an open mind and is interested.
Home life... well Ace and I are renewing our lease this weekend for another 14 months. Yep... apartment life is ours for a little while longer. My hope is that between now and then we can dig ourselves out a tiny bit from this massive pile of heaping crap I call "debt". Ick. Yeah. And apartment living does have its advantages. One of them is not having a neighbor who lives above you that just so happens to have a nervous twitch and bangs the floor and walls at all hours of the day. It's also really annoying to have your front door move every time someone else slams theirs. BUT... the biggest advantage of all is the fact that I can vacuum the entire apartment off of one freakin outlet. YEP. Awesome. There isn't too much space to clean, in fact I actually feel really comfortable with the amount of space we have and are responsible for keeping clean and tidy. And I still manage to keep it clutter free! WHOO HOO! The cats are still furry. I think about shaving them on a daily basis. I hate the cat hair. A LOT. I know they'd be pissed off, but at least I could sleep at night knowing that I don't have to worry about possibly coughing up a fur ball in the morning. I swear - that damn fur gets everywhere! What else. My car is still awesome. It has done great in the snow so far. Of course I'm an amazing driver, so accidents aren't a possibility. But I did have a mini-heart attack yesterday when some a-hole cut me off with the roads being slick. Idiots. It's a miracle I even drive, really. I hate other drivers.
Work is really neat right now. Today I got to build a vacancy announcement all by myself and it felt really good. Of course I had to still ask questions along the way, but for the most part I feel like I have a handle on what I'm doing. It's also given me a new understanding and appreciation for the USGS. I think I have a much better idea of who we are as an organization now that I'm building jobs and advertising them. YAY for HR!
Health wise I've been ok. Not great, but ok. I had some stomach issues back in December and so I'm seeing my specialist at the end of this month. Just some abnormal pain sometimes. Nothing major. I also think I've had less migraines, even during my monthly low hormone periods. There was a kidney stone about a month ago, but that thankfully didn't last long. Whew, it was a painful one too. All I can think every time I get one now is - I hope this doesn't put me in the freakin hospital. I don't have time for this! My biggest complaint right now is muscle soreness. I can't seem to stretch enough to make my back, neck, shoulders stop hurting. Ideally - I'd have a massage a couple times a month. Realistically - I get one every 4 or 5 months. I know I tend to sit at the computer for too long and all that, but still... I'd like to think with as much stretching as I do... But, whatever.
So the biggest news of all is that I'm going to North Carolina in a couple weeks. I'm flying in on the 21st and heading back home on the 25th. Why? Because my mom and Gma live in a clutter filled house and need help. Serious help. So much help in fact that a close friend is driving up from GA with his truck to give me a hand. Sadly, my poor uncle has taken the grunt of all their drama the last 7 years and I only now found out how bad the situation is. I'm now stepping in and taking charge. The plan is to tear down a shed, empty another shed, consolidate two storage units into the one shed, get 3 bedrooms cleared out and figure out the washing machine situation. It's a lot for a solid 3 days, but I feel like with 3-4 adults working on it, all will get done in the end. I just want to be able to live day to day knowing that my mom is sleeping in a bed, not on a couch, and that when the time comes to move them OUT of this house it will at least be semi-organized. Of course I will report on how well that goes. Right now I'm nervous, anxious and excited all at the same time. I'm happy to see a couple good friends and to visit my mom. But I am really nervous that my Gma is going to be uncooperative and not let us get this house cleaned out. I understand its her house and all that... but when it gets to a certain point I think people just get overwhelmed and need a little help. I'm that little help. Sort of. For those of you who pray - please make some serious prayers for me during that weekend. It's going to be rough all around. On a good note - I will finally get to eat some damn quality biscuits and BBQ. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... the things Southerners take for granted. I can't wait.
I think that's about it. My mind is filled with all sorts of thoughts right now. Hopefully I can fall asleep soon. Real quick... I want to recommend a book of poetry written by W. Michael Armbruster. It's called, Hugs and other wonderful stuff. REALLY good poetry. It's real, authentic, full of love and passion. And it helps that I know him:-)
I hope all of you have a blessed weekend.
<3
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Ok, so tons has happened since my last post. Our weekend with the squirt was awesome. He loved all his new toys and we had a blast playing along with him. I bought these foam swords at Target a couple months ago and they are GREAT. He just laughs and giggles and laughs.... I could hear that laugh all day long. Know what I mean?
Back at work that Tuesday, Wed and partial Thursday. Whomever is our primary decision maker on the totem pole let us leave at 1pm on the 31st. WHOO HOO! Know what I did? I took a nap!! Yep. Went home, cuddled with the pups I was watching and took a nice nap. Then we went for a long walk and parted ways. Their parents got home that night and I headed to Eliza's. Oh yeah.... I sure do love this dog. She is just so darn cute! Once I got over to her place she and I went for a long walk too. While I don't necessarily want to go walking at first with the dogs I watch, once I'm doing it - I usually feel really good afterward. So I know it's good for both of us. Anyways... that night was uneventful. Ace was a turd that night so I celebrated the new year watching Kendra and some show on Animal Planet. That Friday Ace and I had a serious talk... for like, 5 hours. After that we ate some lunch and headed to the mall. I'm on a mission to find the perfect boot. Now - this is the perfect boot for ME, not some fashionista. We walked around this damn mall for what felt like forever. I must have tried on 10 different pair. Nothing. Nada. Ick. Then we left there and watched Watchmen. Overall it was a nice way to start the year.
Then on Sunday I got some serious alone time and kicked my organizing into overdrive. It was awesome. I got so much done and it looks amazing. YAY! I also got some reading done for class and prepped for the week. It's been nice, actually. I have been home just about every night this week. Sleeping in my own bed, etc. Over the past month or so I realized that I need to be a little more selective with my pet sitting. I love animals, but time away from home ALL the time is a little much. Especially now that Ace and I are really making an effort to keep things healthy between us. I am actually on-call for my first weekend with the new job starting tonight. So far nothing yet. If everything goes as expected, I'll not get called in but make an easy $75. Not bad, huh?
So school... or class has been really interesting. Human Sexuality is much more than I really thought about. Not a surprise there, but it's forced me to think about a lot of things I wouldn't have otherwise. I imagine one night I will go into specifics on the blog and ask all sorts of questions. For now, just know that it has been a really neat class. One of our assigned textbooks is, Real Sex-The Naked Truth about Chastity. The title is a little scary and the first two chapters were horrible, but once you get into it - its actually a really good book. The 7th chapter in particular talks about sex in the church community and how as a church whole we really should be telling each other more about ourselves than we do. And we should be talking more openly about sex being that it was created by God. Very good read for any one who has an open mind and is interested.
Home life... well Ace and I are renewing our lease this weekend for another 14 months. Yep... apartment life is ours for a little while longer. My hope is that between now and then we can dig ourselves out a tiny bit from this massive pile of heaping crap I call "debt". Ick. Yeah. And apartment living does have its advantages. One of them is not having a neighbor who lives above you that just so happens to have a nervous twitch and bangs the floor and walls at all hours of the day. It's also really annoying to have your front door move every time someone else slams theirs. BUT... the biggest advantage of all is the fact that I can vacuum the entire apartment off of one freakin outlet. YEP. Awesome. There isn't too much space to clean, in fact I actually feel really comfortable with the amount of space we have and are responsible for keeping clean and tidy. And I still manage to keep it clutter free! WHOO HOO! The cats are still furry. I think about shaving them on a daily basis. I hate the cat hair. A LOT. I know they'd be pissed off, but at least I could sleep at night knowing that I don't have to worry about possibly coughing up a fur ball in the morning. I swear - that damn fur gets everywhere! What else. My car is still awesome. It has done great in the snow so far. Of course I'm an amazing driver, so accidents aren't a possibility. But I did have a mini-heart attack yesterday when some a-hole cut me off with the roads being slick. Idiots. It's a miracle I even drive, really. I hate other drivers.
Work is really neat right now. Today I got to build a vacancy announcement all by myself and it felt really good. Of course I had to still ask questions along the way, but for the most part I feel like I have a handle on what I'm doing. It's also given me a new understanding and appreciation for the USGS. I think I have a much better idea of who we are as an organization now that I'm building jobs and advertising them. YAY for HR!
Health wise I've been ok. Not great, but ok. I had some stomach issues back in December and so I'm seeing my specialist at the end of this month. Just some abnormal pain sometimes. Nothing major. I also think I've had less migraines, even during my monthly low hormone periods. There was a kidney stone about a month ago, but that thankfully didn't last long. Whew, it was a painful one too. All I can think every time I get one now is - I hope this doesn't put me in the freakin hospital. I don't have time for this! My biggest complaint right now is muscle soreness. I can't seem to stretch enough to make my back, neck, shoulders stop hurting. Ideally - I'd have a massage a couple times a month. Realistically - I get one every 4 or 5 months. I know I tend to sit at the computer for too long and all that, but still... I'd like to think with as much stretching as I do... But, whatever.
So the biggest news of all is that I'm going to North Carolina in a couple weeks. I'm flying in on the 21st and heading back home on the 25th. Why? Because my mom and Gma live in a clutter filled house and need help. Serious help. So much help in fact that a close friend is driving up from GA with his truck to give me a hand. Sadly, my poor uncle has taken the grunt of all their drama the last 7 years and I only now found out how bad the situation is. I'm now stepping in and taking charge. The plan is to tear down a shed, empty another shed, consolidate two storage units into the one shed, get 3 bedrooms cleared out and figure out the washing machine situation. It's a lot for a solid 3 days, but I feel like with 3-4 adults working on it, all will get done in the end. I just want to be able to live day to day knowing that my mom is sleeping in a bed, not on a couch, and that when the time comes to move them OUT of this house it will at least be semi-organized. Of course I will report on how well that goes. Right now I'm nervous, anxious and excited all at the same time. I'm happy to see a couple good friends and to visit my mom. But I am really nervous that my Gma is going to be uncooperative and not let us get this house cleaned out. I understand its her house and all that... but when it gets to a certain point I think people just get overwhelmed and need a little help. I'm that little help. Sort of. For those of you who pray - please make some serious prayers for me during that weekend. It's going to be rough all around. On a good note - I will finally get to eat some damn quality biscuits and BBQ. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... the things Southerners take for granted. I can't wait.
I think that's about it. My mind is filled with all sorts of thoughts right now. Hopefully I can fall asleep soon. Real quick... I want to recommend a book of poetry written by W. Michael Armbruster. It's called, Hugs and other wonderful stuff. REALLY good poetry. It's real, authentic, full of love and passion. And it helps that I know him:-)
I hope all of you have a blessed weekend.
<3
m
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